#I want that gender back ok!!!!
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ame worlds beyond number is soooo non-binary coded To Me.
#it’s like. hm.#like that thing of when you’re a kid and you don’t have the expectations to Fit In to the gender binary quite yet#and you can run around and be loud and rough and dirty and no one cares because you’re a seven year old girl#and then you grow up and people ridicule you for being outside of the binary through adolescence#and then as an adult you learn to perform gender for the sake of your community#(thinking of ame’s outfit being pretty hyper feminine and the way her personality as an adult contrasts with her kid personality;#like because of both her position as a witch and a woman she needs to be calm and professional and a caretaker and a mediator and…)#idk.#I’m just thinking about the 14 year old ame scene again it was A Lot#‘she’s not a girl- she’s a witch!’ sparked this post btw.#worlds beyond number#also I get such gender envy from children’s adventure ame and it’s because she reminds me of me as a kid#I want that gender back ok!!!!#twtwatwo#ame wbn
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this one goes out to all the kids who had their brain chemistry altered by werehog sonic growing up 💪💪💪
#aka me#I HAVE POSTED ABT THAT RIGHT. HOW WEREHOG SONIC CHANGED MY LIFE. HE TRANSED MY GENDER AND MADE ME A FURRY. THE POWER HE HOLDS.#i actually dont think i would really call myself a furry anymore?? like i super was in my pre and early teens but its sorta passed?? and#hasnt rlly come back#i do want to get back into drawing anthros and whatnot but ajgjhj#ok i was gonna jsut title this as “freedom” or smth but no#my art#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#lycion#havent been able to stop thinking abt him. him and fleki specifically. love those two so much.
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I'm still thinking about that post about how female characters and especially wlw and f/f ships are treated in fandoms because I got a reply that I deleted on my post about how all the Nein were big shippers on deck for Beau and Yasha that boiled down to "haha Caleb making a tower so the useless lesbians would admit they liked each other!" and it's like. He made the tower to Beau's orders. She had already asked out Yasha, who in turn had of her own volition written Beau a phenomenal, beautiful letter instead of a poem as recommended by Jester. This is factually incorrect and obnoxiously dismissive of a genuinely great dynamic and attributes all agency to a man. When you say shit like this you sound like you are Chat GPT. No new thoughts no time actually spent analyzing a relationship dynamic just "ooh i see a woman in fiction what is the phrase most associated with this ok done onto the next task".
#whenever i post like 20 times before 8:15 am like this you need to understand it's bc my dumbass morning person body woke up at like 5:45 am#and i was like well i'm not getting back to sleep and then pounded 3 cups of coffee in an hour#just to give some context#also if i delete a reply or anon know that it's because i wanted to reply with something like this and (usually) restrained myself#which is very hard for me as an annoying person#like. it is very difficult to articulate this without sounding like some kind of well I don't see gender asshole and that isn't what i mean#but if you can only talk about wlw and women in general in overused memes that weren't funny the first time#you're clearly not like. spending time thinking about them. you can see this with repeated phrases#like the reason why repeated phrases in fanfic or in academic essays are looked down on is bc it shows you're not fucking thinking#you just grabbed what someone else said and said haha ok done i'm gonna go back to a busy day of eating markers
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thw world when im working on a conlang again
#AHHHHH#every time i take a break from conlanging and then get back into it it feels so good.#ok this is gonna be my second rework of my second conlang. i already tried earlier this year but it didnt really go anywhere#and i wanted to lowkey start another rework from scratch and i think im bringing in some cool ideas#actually did i even post about this lang? i called it raz then but im gonna give it a new name now i think#but yeah it has a weird gender system and animacy based word order and like a bajillion cases and i think#i might even do auxiliary verbs??? i dont think any of my clongs have auxiliaries lmao i kinda hate them#but yeah im thinking a fusional tense + aspect marker and then moods marked with auxiliaries maybe#also wanna play around with evidentiality#ramblings
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pieces of my soul i can't reject
love letters, prayers, diary entries, maybe all of the above. for the little girl i used to be <3
I’ve been thinking about this post a lot lately. How it really, truly, and deeply conveys the way I conceptualize the younger version of myself. The version of myself that didn’t know we were genderqueer.
I think about her a lot, that little girl I used to be. She was strong and bright and brave. Her girlhood was so intrinsic to her. But she’s not me anymore. I laid her down in a grave I dug a while ago so she could rest. She didn’t get that— rest— when she was here, but she has it now. One day, I’ll rest with her. I’ll wrap my arms around her and hold her close like I was always meant to; even if it can only be in death and never in life.
It’s weird, sometimes, to think about who I used to be. I look at photos of that little girl I was and I don’t see myself. But I feel her within me, in the dreams I can’t dare to give up on because that would be a betrayal. I still have her memories. I was her but she isn’t me and isn’t that all a bit contradictory?
I could talk about my past self with they/them pronouns if I wanted to, other people do it all the damn time, but I won’t. I won’t do it because she was a girl to her core and I can’t bring myself to take that from her. She hurt so much when she was here, she faced things that no kid should have to face (the catholic church really will do a number on you). And I cannot imagine hurting her more by denying her existence.
I didn't grow into a woman But I grew up as a girl
Teenagehood provoked me and soon, womanhood choked me But sisterhood held me with care
~ Girl by Cammi McDermott
To me, there is something sweet and gentle and tender in acknowledging my past self’s existence while also recognizing that she is not me anymore. There is something gentle and tender in caring about my past self, in loving my past self.
I wonder, sometimes, if in a different life she wasn’t a part of me. Maybe in some other universe she’s a girl I get to hold close to me while we’re both alive. Maybe in another timeline I get to tuck her into bed and shroud her in the softness she deserved but didn’t always get. Because wouldn’t that be lovely?
I love her, that little girl I used to be. I’m not her anymore, but I hope that somewhere in the ether she can hear me telling her, “I love you, I’m proud of you, I remember you. I will always remember you.”
#some trans feels for your dash i guess#been wanting to write something for her for a while#i guess i wrote her something back in march#but she deserves more#trans#gender stuff#personal#probably too personal if we're being honest#ok to reblog
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*grits teeth*
i do not want to discourse here or anywhere anymore but it does kind of affect me as a transmasc bi person when i see shit that indirectly misgenders me and implies that bisexuality is an icky no good word and identity and you have to be bi and gay and bi and lesbian and bi and straight at the same time or support them or you're an evil stinky stinky terf like... hello where am, i
#it makes me feel othered by an otherwise inclusive community bc how dare i think that men aren't involved in lesbianism#or how dare i think that bisexuality is a whole and valid sexuality#or how dare i think that any and all nonbinary genders are included in every single sexuality by default#or that trans women are women so no fuckin g duh theyre included in lesbianism and if your knee jerk reaction to seeing:#men cannot be lesbians is to think of trans women then you are the transphobe here#or how i dare think that trans man and transmasc aren't the exact same thing#that genderqueerdyke person is also a transadrophobia geek and theyre buddies with genderkoolaid#which like. do i HAVE to say it?#IF U IGNORE THE TRANSMISOGYNY (WHICH U SHOUDLNT) THEYRE ALSO A ZIONIST HELLOW?? WHATS NOT CLICKING WHATS NOT CLICKING#OK IM KINDA MAD ABT THAT LIKE... SORRY BUT HOW ABOUT WE DONT PLATFORM IDIOTS NO MATTER HOW GOOD THEIR RHETORIC MIGHT SOUND#BC U WANT TO BE TOTALLY INCLUSIVE AND NOT GATEKEEPY#ive BEEN around the fucking block ive BEEN on tumblr when the resident terfs here coined bi lesbian#if you scrolled back far enough in certain keywords you wouldve seen that shit in the early 2010s being discussed in their circles#to mean lesbians who are attracted to trans women#you cannot reclaim that or recoin it#yes ive done the research too#i looked at every single piece of evidence of that label existing in the past 50~ years#its just bisexual women back when lesbian spaces also included them#plus like may i also fucking ssay that bisexual also used to mean being of two sexes (transsexual/gender and/or intersex?)#this close to fully believing that the pushback against bisexual being it's own whole and valid sexuality is some kind of psy op#i sound schizophrenic well Maybe I Am#i feel like im going to end up deleting this post bc i dont want to argue with people who disagree with me because there is no getting#through to any of you#tbd.
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doctor who star beast special spoilers ‼️
the metacrisis Let It Go resolution scene was a little funny bc like. what do u mean “u wouldn’t understand this as someone male presenting” bro was literally a woman like a minute ago 😭 fun episode fr though idec that it got a little bit cringy like that
#i’m NOTTTT being one of those Ugh It’s So Woke people but 😭 the doctor was Just a woman right before this so idk if that totally makes sense#yknow#anyway i’m not gonna complain hello hi doctor who is back i’m SO EXCITED WOOOOO#idk how to say this but it definitely felt disney-y#does that makes sense#still good tho 🙏🏼#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#doctor who the star beast#also rose is cool ☝🏼 fun character i love how supportive donna is with her#like donna was so prepared to throw hands for her lolll#also#likeeee ok ik it’s affirming rose’s gender and all but. the doctor has been living as a woman until like a day ago at this point#(or something) (idk the specific time gap between regeneration & seeing donna again)#i wouldn’t say he’s in total Male Mindset rn considering how recently he regenerated#yknowwww?#anyway i’m not complainingggg i swear i just. had a thought and wanted to type it out here
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#never gonna call eminem anything but woe plague be upon ye meme guy in image ids#ANYWAYS <3 IF U WANT TO VOTE FOR MY DAUGHTER AND MY SON IN LAW THATD BE SO COOL :)#if anyone is curious what im talking abt its that there have been several polls where a3! fans have voted and supported knb charas and#vice versa (i think in the end its only a handful of ppl but its ok :>)#it started with aomine and momoi and muku and yuki and now here goes momoi and muku... cheering them on.... these pink and blue guys...#momoi satsuki#muku sakisaka#kuroko no basket#act! addict! actors!#kuroko no basuke#kuroko's basketball#a3!#knb#choo choo losers#ALSO OP WELCOME BACK!!! VERY EXCITED!!!! i hope the days have been well and to the girl (gender neutral) reading this... have a great day :
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Same venue. Same-ish crowd. Opposing seasons. Contrasting vibes.
#me#sometimes you have a few beers and yr feeling yrself. sometimes you feel too much like yourself and consider leaving early#for all the talk of yearning and intricate rituals let me tell you. a drunk girl sidled in right in front of me and the sense of rage i-#her and esp the guys she was with got kinda rowdy in the pit later on shoving each other also into the crowd whom did NOT want part of that#its a lot of people in a small room and at this point i was already further back and against a wall let me tell you#i think if someone had touched me i might have snapped fr#still had an ok time though once i got over feeling super embarrassed about my self and dared looking other people in the eye lol ah#one thing i do like abt the culture is the genderneutrality of it all... the most long and luscious locks in the room belong to some guy#and i can show up in sport bra and oversized shirt no typa bag no makeup wearin black laceup boots that could be m or f#my gender is uh. dont worry abt it lets just turn off the lights and vibe#got talking w someone tho who said she recognised me frm a diff event & i didnt much like that idea.. im not in the mood to be Perceived at#the venue IS p cool tho... like oo at a forgotten space on the other side of the tracks. by the water. by the skate park. yea#edit HOW could i forget. the rowdiest of drunk guys got either shamed into stepping out or str8 removed fr a lil while im not sure lol#and another guy wantedto crowdsurf but only 2 of his friends came to the stage to get him so he just kinda. crawled on top of them#and they awkwardly took a few steps carrying him round the vacated front. none of the crowd wanted shit to do w them lmao
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hey just a reminder because i keep seeing this garbage pile up in the lgbtq+ community: people are not inherently bad for being a man and being masc. it is not a bad thing to identify as a guy and do masculine stuff and present yourself in a masc way. the view that being a man somehow makes you bad/abusive/creepy/bigoted hurts so many men in our community (gay men, trans men, literally everyone actually) and it's just a ridiculous statement in itself. gender does not equal morality, belief or action. people are not predisposed to badness because of their gender. that is a silly idea and i thought we as a community progressed past this but apparently not.
#lgbtq#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#masc#ok now for the big boy tags:#terfs fuck off#terfs eat shit#terfs dni#do not derail#exclus dni#terfs go explode#disc horse eueueugg#sorry for making this post not rebloggable i don't want terfs touching this#oh! and all bigots who reply to this post will be swiftly blocked :)#i got no time for dealing with bigots on my blog#you won't even get a response you'll just get yeeted into the void and made fun of#if i see a single ''um ackshually men are-'' you will be go n e#gender does not equal morality#i'll say it louder for the people in the back!! GENDER DOES NOT EQUAL MORALITY!!!!!!#this post is not ignoring that there are genuinely bad men out there either by the way!#i acknowledge that and that is a shitty thing that should be talked about. but.#anyone and everyone has the capacity and ability to be bad no matter what their identity is.#anyone can kick a dog no matter what their gender is#and trying to insinuate that certain genders are predisposed to doing bad things is backwards and sexist#the same goes for the belief that ONLY certain genders can be and will be bad. it's just not true.#men are not inherently evil for being men. people can be evil no matter who they are.#this belief hurts so many trans men in our community as well#like me for example. i'm a trans guy and i feel so comfortable being a masc man.#i don't appreciate people saying that people like me are evil when i'm literally over here just petting my animals and drawing silly guys#like cmon. anyway men are not inherently evil and i'm taking the word evil away until you understand what it means
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I want to present masc so bad but with my parents and family as a whole it's near impossible rn
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#(I vent in tags so don't read if you don't wanna read me venting sorry)#I've essentially recloseted myself if that makes sense#I came out to my mom and dad and they were all iffy abt it#“and is it ok if I'm gay too..?” “well that's not rlly possible”#my dad says even tho I just told them both I'm a trans man#I'm near positive they still see me as their daughter and everytime I think abt that I want to throw up until I can't#my mom even told me to hide my identity as a trans man to my very Christian grandma bc it would be “hard for her to come to terms with it”#I came out to them maybe three almost four years ago by now#and I came out to my other grandma and all I got was her saying “yeah it's ok but what if you're wrong?”#“What if you do smth to your body that you can't reverse?”#“We faught for you kids to not have labels and you're going back to them”#she acted like I could get surgery or smth right then and there#all I could do even now if the puberty blockers which is so easily reversible it's crazy I just have to stop taking it#others who aren't trans take it so why can't I#they act like I'm this silly teenager doesn't know what he's talking abt but I've done my research on this stuff#I don't fucking care what my family thinks abt my identity and they can fuck off if they don't wanna accept me#my mom even told me that she “told my grandma I'm bisexual bc she'll be able to comprehend that better”#and my dad literally going “these are nice gender neutral shoes” when I was looking for BLACK SHOES#and he kept repeating it too I'm so sick of this shit I rlly am#I love my family but they rlly piss me off sometimes
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how does one like. get a binder
#like ik how#im priveleged enough to be able to buy one#ik ehic5h company id go with#but its like im waiting for permission#which no one can really give me#like i could wait til im registered back with the doctor's but even if i was brave enough to bring it up they'd either say just don't#or your asthma is completely fine like they always do#like im the best placed to gauge if my lungs can handle wearing one#really i want someone to come along and say it'll help you're allowed this it wont be a waste of money#and you won't have to share with your parents the specifics of your dysphoria#when i could barely come out without apologizing for it even tho they were ok with it#if it were anyone else i cannot emphasize how behind them id be but when its myself im just stuck going in circles#im gon try and call sib at lunchtime and order it then bc yesterday was really not pleasant#a properly fitted binder can't be much more uncomfortable than a too small sports bra surely#and im already good at taking breaks w that so#we'll see ig#mine#gender adventures with neednoggle#not to complain abt being a skinny person w a big chest when society is obsessed w skinny ppl w big chests#but JFC
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transphobes attacking me on insta for taking HRT after i literally explain that T saved my life by stopping my near-constant menstrual linked-hormonal seizures that i've been having since i was abt 16ish.... they don't actually care if it literally is keeping you alive in a medical sense they want you dead because you don't hate that you're not cis regardless
#pre-T i was never sure if i wanted HRT but after starting T it literally fucking saved my life and i can't imagine going back#full on. my roommates used to have to sit with me for hours in case i choked and died while going in and out of sei#seizures#it was terrifying for me AND them. i would have no thought going through my head besides 'please dont let me die like this'#HRT literally saved my life. it has been the ONLY thing to stop such aggressive and regularly seizures#and while im still disabled im at least not worried ALL THE TIME i'll die suddenly from this struggle#cis people would literally rather me DEAD than being ok with facial hair growth in exchange for no seizures#im a little drinkie i apologize for ranting. im just genuinely so upset objectively#someone said im ABUSING hormones.....#i had an episode in late 2021 that i was in and out of a seizing state for 2 hours. TWO HOURS.#the longest episode i've had since starting T over a year ago was maybe 20 seconds#i feel sick at the idea that people want me to suffer so significantly because they don't like that i'm enjoying the gender euphoria too#fuck. anyway.#rant#ig.....#alcohol tw
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i hate slow damage so much there are tears in my eyes i am not joking
#HIS BEAUTIFUL HAIR?!?!??!??#''rei changed his gender expression to be more masculine''#he now looks like someones quirky straight aunt#i could have forgiven the short hair if it either looked good or if he looked like a lesbian but my god this sucks so bad#men should never cut their hair actually#unless they want to ofc but i will b judging#what happened to my beautiful beautiful man#this guy sucks ass#i went from being a rei hater to a rei lover back to a rei hater so fast#im joking i dont hate him#but hes so ugly#ok maybe this will grow on me#i doubt it.#leevi liveblogs#i just realized my tags made it sounds like lesbians dont look good im so sorry lesbians for wording that weird#i meant like good in a man way or good in a lesbian way#as in both options are good and the option i personally dont like is someones straight aunt
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trying to classpect megathrust so far i have. horux heir of hope. produk maid of light. kira uhh witch of either blood or heart whichever one i decide is better or i could always go the thief of life route (who hasnt. fuck . ive got exe and idlkw left and brother im about to kill myself about this why are these two so difficult stop being a hardass
#megathrustposting#i have to talk about this on tblr now bc i dont want to rant about it on discord anymore sorry whoever sees this#Also . everyone knows this already but the gender alignments are bullshit. ok wtv#fuck is idolkawa page of breath... i see it i fucking guess. the friend thats too tavros#its so Basic sorry i dont like copying classpects. back into the grinder you go#like for idolkw class im thinking . 1 prince 2 knight? 3 page. different aspects for each. im so fucking tired. no one even cares about thi#exe is a bit like . prince or knight core . guy who fucks around idk#every single time i get stuck at these two. i just want to get this over with so thtat i can stop thinking about homestuck. fuck
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Few days late, but happy pride from your local doofus who, despite intellectually grasping that nonbinary can be anything outside the binary and is not stuck on some invisible slider, only JUST really had the realization that he can identify as "a guy, And More" literally a couple of days ago and therefore still id as nonbinary
All bc his brain is slow and was subconsciously placing genders on an invisible slider that went against his technical understanding of gender theory
Happy pride, you can do whatever and be whatever, don't let your brain play mean tricks on you this June kids!
#im nearly 30 and have grasped on Some Level that gender isn't so limited for at least a decade now#but clearly my brain is either slow on the uptake (very like me) or still hung up on archaic gender models from society (also like me)#bc when I thought about identifying as enby after realizing im a trans guy it emotionally felt like a regressive move#ie my brain had this guy-nonbinary-girl slider fsr that I felt like I was moving backwards on#and while backtracking back to nonbinary which I did ID as wasn't Bad#it felt Wrong to say that's what my gender was#i didn't want my gender to be 'guy except not' and I only realized this past week it's Allowed And Ok to be 'guy except More'#and that counts! entirely! im just ! so freaking slow if no one spells out these concepts to me istg snfjsjfjskcns#so yeah! hopefully it's not just me and maybe I open someone else's eyes with this#or at least maybe someone already went through this neat lil epiphany and Gets It#internalized transphobia cw#ig??? idk if that's the cause or not but just to be safe#blablablah#trans#nonbinary#happy pride
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